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having a consuming passion to write

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A Conflicted Contradiction

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I wonder how long will it take for them to realize I am not who they think I am. 

I am not a perfect daughter or the lazy innocent girl my family thinks I am. I am neither the bubbly, out going teen not the loner that my ‘friends’ and acquaintances think I am. I can’t be described as nice or naughty.

I am a complete contrast of different personalities; I can not stay as one person for too long. 

I don’t do the things I am told to do yet I feel a need to complete the tasks given to me. 

I am an obedient rebel. A person whose mind is filled with so many thoughts it could fill up the solar system, scratch that, the universe. 

I seem to know a lot of things yet I know nothing. 

I can’t understand and I can’t differentiate between reality and delusions and I am okay with that.

I do not know what is going to happen in the future; I have plans and dreams but right now I honestly don’t want to anything to achieve them and live for the moment.

My mind is a paradox. I want to be happy yet I think of things that make me sad. I reject affection when it comes my way but I crave it. I’m ambitious yet lazy. I love who I am yet I don’t like myself. I really care but I say I don’t.

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Be nice

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Always be nice first, because you can always be mean later.
Once you’ve been mean to someone, they wouldn’t believe that the nice exist anymore.
So be nice, be nice, until it’s time to stop being nice, then destroy them.